I'm not too sure why, but lately I've been feeling a little low. I've found this old notebook, and when I'm upset or depressed I go to this page and write something that reflects my feelings, whether its 'Friends don't exisit, they're just people who hang around with you' or 'Everything dies. RIP.' I don't really know why I feel like this. Every now and then I just start felling upset and bad about myself for no reason. Anyway, I'm kinda getting lonely. Maybe I'll just go and talk to my teddies, or maybe myself...

My day today was relitively normal. Unless you count the golden dragonet I imagined hovering outside my school window. Even though it wasn't really there, I REALLY wanted to open the window and flap my arms so I could soar away from this dismal weather and even more dismal school (maybe not arms, but WINGS!!! Maximum Ride how I envy you!! In some aspects...). Even though I absolutely adore this weather, there's something in it that makes people cold in themselves and tend to ignore you a lot. Or maybe that just happens to me. Whatever the weather, my life is confusing and I wish I could stop it every now and then and just take some time out to relax. Weekends go waaay too quick. Personally I think school should be on Saturday and Sunday and we gat the rest of the week off. Now THAT, would be excellent *big nod, cheer from knids around the world*!!!

I may blog again later, depends.

By-ee!! <(;^)

ps. the Flames, I do come from the UK, and it's quite annoying. I'm asleep, and everyone else is blogging!! Oh yeah, I want to start a book, well, continue one I have already started. Maybe you could help..I tend to start then not finish *meek smile*. Reply back if you wanna help and I'll give you my email.

Today, I swallowed my pride and apologised to my friend who-shall-not-be-named. So we're all chummy again, when towards the end of the day, she links with my other mate who was stuck in the middle and walks off, so my other mate calls back to me and holds out ther hand so I can link her and She-Who-Cannot-Be-Named had the cheek to start walking faster! In front of me! And this happend every time I tried to link with my other mate, and when she stopped to let me catch up, She-Who-Cannot-Be-Named pulled her along!! Literally yanked!! I..had swallowed my pride..and apologised for something I didn't even think was that wrong..and she STILL treated me like dirt!!!! I'm gonna see if this happens tomorrow, and if it does, I am having serious words...

In other news, I am officially mad. I wear different coloured stripey socks and black nail varnish, and I come out with things that would make Einstien frown with puzzlement. No-one knows what I talk about half the time...I don't know what I talk about half the time...or any time, for that. When I talk on blogs and that, I feel like I can actually be myself and even more mad than usual. Or, even better than that, I meet people as mad as me!!! That makes me feel so special and wanted, gives me a warm, bubbly feeling inside. *contented smile, soft sigh* oh well, must dash, have homework to do!

<(:^D (like my witch...?)

I'm sitting at my comp. with all this thunder rumbling in the background, occasionally catching glimpses of my black nails and my gothic rose ring with absolutely nothing to do. So I thought I might blog, ya know, let off some steam. So I'm going to rant about my so-called friend. With the utmost respect for her privacy (as if she cares for mine) I will not mention her name. I will call her...The Girl Who Went Into A Strop For No Reason, or TGWWIASFNR. Now TGWWIASFNR had said that she didn't like a particular person who sat at our table at lunch. She'd just come and sit down uninvited and that really bugged her. So when they found out, I thought well, there's not much point in lying anymore, is there? And when asked, I admitted that TGWWIASFNR didn't like the person in question. So the person in question then told TGWWIASFNR who then confronted me with the words 'You told the person in question?', and me being the honest person that I am said 'Yes', to which she stormed off and procced to ignore me and bitch about me WHILE I WAS IN THE ROOM!! Now the bitching didn't really bother me, but I stayed away from TGWWIASFNR as this really annoyed me. I had told her things I didn't want her to tell anyone else, things about other people, what I thought of them. And her being the lovely, kind, sweet person she is decided to tell them. On purpose. This has happend about 5 times in the last year, and I do this once, AND the person in question already knew, and it's like I've just broken a major law. The reason I stayed away and didn't apologise, which is what I would normally do, is because I was so angry I thought I might have had to hit her. And I hit hard. This was on Friday, and I haven't spoken to her since. Another friend of mine is stuck in the middle, and TGWWIASFNR will probably try to take her away from me. *sigh* it's times like this I hate my life. Having no friends kinda makes life hard, and school even harder. So, on Monday, I'm gonna try to make ammends, and of course I'll keep you posted. Meanwhile, back on Earth...please can somone start commenting, or something! I feel so alone...*sob*...and I am also counting down the days till the Eragon movie comes out. I am soooooooo excited!!!!! And I am literally jumping out of my seat in frustration as I can't wait till they announce when the MR film is coming out!!! * tears out hair in clumps* ARGHHHH!!! I HATE DIRECTORS!!!!! *deep breaths in, and out, in...* sorry. I must calm down. I'm getting too excited. Maybe I'll go back to bed for a bit. Yes, *contented, lazy smile, eyes closing, head slowly nodding* back to bed...

Okay, so this is a random thoughts post.

A strawberry tastes like a strawberry, and a carrot tastes like a carrot, so why cover apples in toffee and chocolate?

Pigs don't fly, but if you threw it, could you say it was trying?

Teddy bears come alive at night and eat one sock of every pair.

Monsters do live under the bed, but they come out at night and eat spinich.

Leaves are trees, and trees are sparkly, so ergo, a computer has a smiley face.

Life is random. So am I.

Dying is bad for your health.

Don't look at me in that tone of voice!

Hmmm, my random ramble is over...for now.

It's only recently I realised that lots of people moan about their lives. They have one problem or another, and it's never really serious, it's always something stupid like 'Ohhh, my eyeshadow doesn't match my lipgloss' or 'my shoes don't go with my bag' or 'aliens landed in my back garden and took my dog and my homework and it's due in today'. Now, I'm not exactly a saint when it comes to moaning. In fact, I'm not a saint when it comes to anything...but the point is my friend has some serious problems. Her mum isn't well, and she doesn't moan about anything. If anyone had the right to moan, its her. But she doesn't. It's just the stupidest problems that people dislike and want to get off their chest (did I spell that right??) which makes no sense. *sigh*...life makes no sense, but it's the only game we can play. I make no sense, but then again, who does? Sorry, I've been rambling..though you've probably come to expect that of me by now. Anywho, going to pick what colour socks to wear for school tomorrow. Green, red, purple, yellow, or orange-pink-yellow-green in flourescent black-and-(enter colour here) striped. Sorr, sorry, rambling again!!I better go or I'll continue talking well into the night. TTTT (ta ta till tomorrow!!!) (perhaps...)

P.S. if anyone's actually interested, it was my birthday on the 5th which was...17 days ago, and I am officially 14.Yay!! AND, I had chocolate cake!! Which my nan made, who is a great cook and has a dodgy ticker. Anyway. this postscript was supposed to be short. Oh well. Better go, my t.v. smells funny (NO, I'm not joking).

P.P.S. Eragon the movie comes out 15th December, and anyone who has read the book WILL watch it, and even if you haven't watch it or I will be angry. And you won't like me when I'm angry...